I keep saying I want to get on here and blog more often. Lately, however, I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed, and when I'm feeling overwhelmed, I have trouble putting two cohesive sentences together. Yeah, "feeling scattered" is putting it mildly. I'm not saying I'm busier than the average mom with an inability to say no to anyone, but I seem to be feeling it a bit more than usual. So here's what's going on, and how it's affecting my usual cool as a cucumber psyche:
1. School. Homework. Kids complaining about teachers. Girl has her first teacher she doesn't just love, and we've had to have the "you're not always going to like your teacher" conversation. She seems heartbroken. Boy does not like his English teacher, and the feeling is mutual. I have to keep reminding him that she does have some control over his future, so he'd better learn to fake it. Boy also wants to get into a more challenging school next year, and mama here is stressing about that more than he is.
2. Still looking for a job. Yes, I am a sub for my local school district, but I really would like to get on permanently somewhere. This became more stressful this week when...
3. My car broke. She started leaking and smoking the other day...not an attractive look for my sweet ride, let me tell you. They had to take the entire engine apart to get to the problem. This was a very expensive repair. Why, you may ask, did I choose to spend $600 to fix a car that is not worth more than $900? Because, my friends, I need to keep her running another year, or at least until I get a permanent, full time job. Then I can get a new car. With air conditioning!
4. Relay For Life. I went to our regional Relay Leadership Summit this past weekend in Nashville, a city I've never visited, and really still have never visited, as we spent the entire time in the hotel. The Gaylord Opryland Hotel was a lovely hotel, though - huge, many acres of lovely. This Summit was supposed to be a motivational, "let's make our Relay the best it can be" kind of thing. Unfortunately, I found myself a little disheartened. All these communities, many of them much poorer communities, are bringing in hundreds of thousands of dollars, and our rather wealthy community only brought in $85,000 this year. I have to remind myself, though, that this was a $15,000 increase over last year. With a new committee in a new place. We almost doubled our team number. These are all good things. I'm hoping to help build this committee more, and then increase our numbers again for 2013. Feeling better. I knew writing this out would help.
5. Do you stress out when your kid is sick? I mean, do you waffle back and forth about whether you should let them stay home, and then you continue to obsess about whether you should have let them stay, oh, and should you take them to the doctor if it's just a cough? Maybe it will turn into pneumonia, but it could be just allergies, oh boy, and then the panic attacks set in. You see what I'm talking about here? Funny enough, they're not even sick right now. I just got myself into that crazy space.
I finished The Haunting of Hill House today, and that was an interesting book. A real, decent haunting story, the kind that keeps you guessing. I can't say anymore, for fear of either ruining the story for you all, or for the people I will be discussing the book with at a future book club party. So now I'm all about the scary books, and my library just got Odd Apocalypse in for me today. So I'll start that next.
My head has been hurting all day today, so I think I will go up to bed soon. Next time will be a bit more cheerful, and a bit sooner, I promise. Maybe I'll snap a picture or two to post here...