Thursday, February 11, 2016

Day 12

Made it through the day, no cheating. Thanks for the moral support last night, I appreciate it. I don't know what my issue is, but I am craving peanut butter and jelly sandwiches all over the place.

Today's food:
Meal 1: coffee with almond/coconut milk, chicken/potato/spinach soup
Meal 2: shredded pork, spinach, roasted potatoes, orange, kombucha
Meal 3: grilled chicken, roasted potatoes/carrots, broccoli, a little more kombucha, orange

Today's workout: 5AM Boot camp. I forgot my Fitbit this morning. I hate it when I do that.

I buy one bottle of kombucha and make it last a few days - it's expensive. I may have to learn to make it.

Today was a rather intense day. We're in the middle of end of year reviews, I ran a meeting this morning where we learned a number of new, not so very pleasant things, and then I had a long call this afternoon where I learned more about the unpleasant things, but not enough to answer the questions I have.  I don't think my job is in trouble, but I think the next 6 months may be...I hate to overuse a word, but...unpleasant.

On a happier note, one of my favorite friends is coming to visit from everyone's favorite city of sin, Indianapolis tomorrow. And then...long weekend! Huzzah!


Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Days 10 & 11

Yikes, sorry guys! I didn't get home until late last night, and I just did not feel the blogging. I've had my first true tests this week - back to back book club nights Monday and Tuesday. Monday night was my MOMS Club book club, for which I did not finish the book, but I will, because it is really quite good. I brought Sunshine Sauce and veggies, and some was eaten but not much. Still haven't figured out what is missing. One of the lovelies brought cucumbers dusted in some delightful seasoning just for me, because she knew I could eat it. Because she is fabulous, and she reads this blog - you are fabulous! Someone else brought fruit, and the host had an iced bowl of mandarin sections. I ate all of the strawberries, which are surprisingly delicious right now, and probably half of the mandarins. Then, luckily, we stepped away from the food to discuss the book I still haven't finished, which helped my need to pick at all the food. There were other things that looked delicious, but I kept my eyes to the produce.

Last night was classics book club, and the host made a compliant, rice-less jambalaya. It was fantastic, but not as fantastic as she is for thinking of me. There was also bananas foster trifle and homemade chess cake, and I faltered...oh I wanted a lot of both, but instead I took down a very large bowl of berries. In other words, I really kind of failed at the spirit of the Whole 30 last night, but I stayed compliant according to the rules, so I am going to call it a win, and move on. Today has, honestly, been pretty rough. About 50 different times today I considered just stopping this whole thing, but I have never gotten this far along on an eating plan, so I will keep trucking. Supposedly, Days 10-12 are the days most people quit, so perhaps, if I get past tomorrow, I will be good.

So, food for the past two days:
Tuesday: meal 1 - the rest of the chicken, potato, kale soup; meal 2 - chili, orange, apple rings, nuts; meal 3 - veggie chips, salsa, mountain of berries, jambalaya

Wednesday: meal 1 - broth, chicken, carrots, banana; meal 2 - chicken salad, salad greens, bell pepper, balsamic vinaigrette, orange; meal 3 - olives, Egg Roll in a Bowl (new recipe).

Right now I'm making another pot of the chicken, potato, kale soup (with spinach.) The Egg Roll in a Bowl was decent - I don't think I love the coconut aminos - they are supposed to be like soy sauce, but they are really sweet, and it tastes odd. It would probably have been better with Sriracha (all hail the mighty Sriracha), but it is not compliant, so...there is a recipe for compliant Sriracha, but I am kind of over making stuff this week.

I have 4 katrillion loads of laundry to fold, and I have to portion out my delightful soup (which would also taste good with Sriracha), so I must be off. Have a spicy night...

Monday, February 8, 2016

Day 9

Oh my goodness, I almost went to bed without posting. And that would be a catastrophe.

I just returned from another fabulous book club evening. I did not finish the book, which is very unusual, but now I am even more excited to do so. It's a good one - The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon. There was a lot of wonderful food, most of which I did not eat (which is hard when your friends have culinary talents which far surpass your own), but I brought veggies and Sunshine Sauce, another brought cucumbers (specifically for me, the angel she is), and two brought fruit. I may have gone a little nuts on the mandarin oranges and strawberries.

Other meals for today:

Breakfast: coffee with coconut/almond milk, chicken, potato, spinach soup
Lunch: fajita chicken and veggies with potatoes, orange
Dinner: chicken verde with potatoes and sauteed spinach in garlic, olives

No workout today, I totally overslept. I'm up late tonight, and won't be making 5am tomorrow, either, but I think I may hit the 5:30PM class before classics book club (sorry friends, I'll wear extra deodorant.)

I have no pictures from today, but we talked about travel tonight a lot, and I was reading about one place I want to visit, which led to another, which led to somewhere else I think I'd like to visit:

Devil's Tower in Wyoming. You remember Close Encounters, right?
Ooh, speaking of which, have you been watching X-Files lately? What do you think? It's so quirky and weird, I'm kind of loving it.

Sunday, February 7, 2016

Day 8

Hello. Happy Superbowl Sunday. There is some heavy duty sportsing going on right now. I am rooting for the Panthers. They seem like a nice group. I'm not actually going to watch, though, so we'll see what happens.

Today was food prep day. Here is a picture of my completely packed refrigerator:


You can see salad greens, soup, chicken salad, roasted potatoes, chili, ghee, Sunshine Sauce...and a bunch of other stuff. Also, Parmesan cheese, which I am not allowed to eat.

Today's food (that I ate):
Breakfast:  Banana (I just wasn't hungry) and coffee
Lunch: lunch was kind of spread out, which is not what I am supposed to do, but I had stuff going on. I made this wicked delicious chili for lunches this week, and I had a small dish of that. The recipe is also at Green Lite Bites - Whole30 Go-to Chili. Oh, it is good. Even my husband liked it, and said he would eat it again. I also ate some berries, and then I went to Mel's house for a Whole30 kickoff party, and we all brought something to share. I made Sunshine Sauce (from Mel Joulwan), and brought veggies to dip. The sauce is good, but it is missing something - I haven't figured it out. Maybe a little salt - coconut aminos are not as salty as soy sauce. There were also grilled shrimp, dump ranch, sauteed potatoes with sundried tomatoes, brussel sprouts cooked with prosciutto, and more. So some snacking ensued. Healthy snacking, but snacking.
Dinner: World's Easiest Crockpot Pork Roast (yum), green beans cooked with onions in ghee, roasted potatoes and carrots. That was a tasty dinner.

I am satisfied, my fridge is full, it's been a good day. I walked with a friend this morning, saw my baby sister this afternoon, talked with my son and some friends online this evening. Now it's time to spend time with my husband and daughter. Have a good night.

Saturday, February 6, 2016

Day 7

Today's meals:
Breakfast - banana and a little chicken
Lunch - berries, half a Lara bar, more chicken
Dinner - potatoes with ghee and chives, strip steak

Very light on the veggies today. I need to make sure I get plenty of those tomorrow.

Workout of the day:
Circuit with Benny - good fun, very tough. I ran for the first time in awhile, and I was sucking wind pretty hard.

I led a support group called "Getting Fit with Depression." I am a Minion this session, and one of the requirements is a "Give Back" activity. After going through a mild funk in October and November, I thought it appropriate. As many of you may know, there is a ton of evidence demonstrating the benefits of exercise on mental health, and I have plenty of personal experience. Unfortunately, finding motivation to work out is tough when you're feeling normal, let alone when you want to curl up in a ball in the corner of your bedroom. A few years ago, a friend's therapist gave her advice which I try to hold onto - when your depressed brain is telling you to do one thing, do the exact opposite. So when my depressed brain tells me to hole up away from other people, to curl up in bed with the covers over my face and cry, I force myself to get up, put on clothes, and go to a class, with other people. I may even announce on Facebook that I am going, so when I get to class, 20 different people call out "Hi Missy!" It makes me feel a little better, and the exercise makes me feel a lot better. If your brain is telling you to stay in bed, get up and move your body.

Other tips:

  1. Start small. Tell yourself you are taking a 5 minute walk. Chances are, you will be able to go a little longer.
  2. Make it social (if that helps.) Invite a friend, spend the time walking and talking. I have two friends who are sweetly willing to listen to me talk through issues when I am panicking. It helps...
  3. Figure out when your highest energy level is during the day, and plan your exercise for then. I am much more productive in the morning, so mornings work best for me. That, and I really don't have a lot of other time.
  4. Be comfortable - don't dress to impress, dress to work. Dress to be comfortable.


Anyway, those were tips I shared, and hopefully someone will find them helpful. As you all know, I'm pretty vocal about my own mental illness, but I know some people like to keep their own personal business to themselves (what?) So, maybe this will help someone reading this right now. Just move.

Ok. So that was serious. Lighthearted happiness - I also got to spend some time snuggling another baby, and visiting with friends. Then I spent the rest of the day with my daughter, who is a big goofball, and makes me smile. AND, my husband made me dinner, and it was mighty delicious. So, a good day. I shall spend the rest of the evening reading. Are you reading anything good? I'm reading a very enjoyable book, but I have a feeling that (gasp!) I will not finish it by book club Monday night. This is a rarity for me - I pride myself on always reading the book. I will finish it, though, it's rather thrilling.

23 days to go, and tomorrow is meal prep day, so I will have pictures from that. So you have that to look forward to...

Friday, February 5, 2016

Day 6

I want pasta with butter and parmesan. and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. and ice cream. and cheddar popcorn. and cream in my freaking coffee.

I wasn't angry all day today, like I expected, but I am kind of sad. I really want those noodles.

Food was pretty good today - I had my soup for breakfast, the last of the chicken salad with spinach, bell pepper, and cruciferous crunch, and some of that balsamic vinaigrette for lunch. I made my first spaghetti squash tonight and ate that with a tomato meat sauce, and it was good. I had an orange around 3. Lots of water. I'm just grouchy.

A lovely thing - I am less bloated. And I've had more control over my cravings than I expected. So, go me.

I really have nothing else to say - and my grouchy brain wants my tea and book. My husband is watching the Star Trek episode where we meet Khan. I've never seen this one. I have to admit, Ricardo Matalban was quite the stud.

Thursday, February 4, 2016

Day 5

Oh my gosh, you guys. I just made the most delicious soup! My friend L suggested I should make a soup to take for my breakfast. I went to one of my favorite blogs, Roni's Weigh, and then took a trip to her recipe blog, Green Lite Bites. I made Kale Potato Chicken soup, although I tweaked it a wee bit - I don't keep kale on hand, so I used spinach. I asked my husband to pick up spinach over the weekend. Do you have any idea how much spinach is in 2 1/2 pounds of spinach? Well, it's 2 1/2 pounds, but it's a freaking huge bag. Anyway, I had roasted sweet potatoes and cooked potatoes and cooked chicken leftover...plus the homemade bone broth...oh, it's so good. I'm so excited for breakfast tomorrow. Even my Girl likes it.

And today was yummy, too! I had chicken and sweet potato for breakfast, leftover fajita and cauliflower rice for lunch, and this very colorful salad:


with spinach, cruciferous crunch, bell pepper, onion, and Tessemae's Balsamic vinaigrette, which was actually very tasty, for dinner, with a hamburger.

This morning I woke up - no headache, no nausea! Tired. So so tired. Luckily, I had a friend meeting me at boot camp, so I went, and I'm glad I did.

In other news, I finished my manager assessments today, so huzzah for that. Ooh, I've been meaning to share this here for months, and I keep forgetting - you know how I often lament the fact that I do not have a passion; I don't know my purpose. I read an article, http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-21637/18-signs-youre-exactly-where-you-should-be-in-life-even-if-it-doesnt-feel-like.html (a few months ago), and one thing really grabbed my attention:

"You’ve let go of trying to find your purpose and instead live each day on purpose."

Good stuff, that. I'm not convinced I'm exactly where I should be at this point, but this statement makes me think maybe it doesn't exactly matter - I can make this work.